guess what?!?! i'm in vegas again, and my stay in vegas is extended again.

but anyways, right now i'm just trying to do something to waste my time while i'm waiting for my train. i need to make a really really small change on the train (<5 minute job), but they cannot get the train back to the trailer since 3pm this afternoon (it's 8pm now). initially they told me that i'll get the train at 7pm. when i check up on them at 7, they told me 30 more minutes. when i check at 7.30, they told me 20 more minutes. when i check at 8, they told me 15 more minutes....it's almost 8.30 now and they still havent got the train moving yet......

well, the good thing is, because of this i don't have to get into the office in the morning tomorrow! :p

hmm....this trip has been quite easy for me...other than today, i've been able to leave work at around 6pm or 7pm everyday!!!
- posted by awylee @ 23:26

 
i am tired....

after two consecutive days of working from 9am-8pm in the office, i am feeling tired already. working in the office is quite different from working on-site. on-site, i don't need to sit in front of the computer all the time thus not that tiring mentally!

anyways, this morning my manager came over and gave me an envelope and told me that i got a raise. however, i wasn't excited about it at all. it's a huge increase and rumor has it that it's a company-wide salary increase of 10%.

what good is money (tons of overtime + salary increase) if i get so occupied by work that i don't have time for God, gf, family, and friends. i barely have enough time for work + God, but i do not have much time left for gf let alone time for family and friends.

what good is money if i don't have my health to use it. if i continue working like this for another one or two years, i'm quite certain that it'll have a negative effect on my future health.

the past 3 weeks, i often have the thought of quitting this job because i cannot see how i 'm glorifying God. this job is causing me to become more distant from God, from family, and from friends. pretty much the only factor that still support me staying in alcatel is that there is a very high possibility of being relocated to china in the future (my vision is part-time ministry in china).

today's salary increase is actually a push for me in the quitting direction. if one day God calls upon me to leave my job and look after His sheeps, letting go my high-paid job would be one of the most difficult things.

more people are going to think that i am weird. i do not feel happy about 10% salary increase. i don't gamble because i'm afraid of winning....


- posted by awylee @ 21:37