guess what?!?! i'm in vegas again, and my stay in vegas is extended again.

but anyways, right now i'm just trying to do something to waste my time while i'm waiting for my train. i need to make a really really small change on the train (<5 minute job), but they cannot get the train back to the trailer since 3pm this afternoon (it's 8pm now). initially they told me that i'll get the train at 7pm. when i check up on them at 7, they told me 30 more minutes. when i check at 7.30, they told me 20 more minutes. when i check at 8, they told me 15 more minutes....it's almost 8.30 now and they still havent got the train moving yet......

well, the good thing is, because of this i don't have to get into the office in the morning tomorrow! :p

hmm....this trip has been quite easy for me...other than today, i've been able to leave work at around 6pm or 7pm everyday!!!
- posted by awylee @ 23:26

 
i am tired....

after two consecutive days of working from 9am-8pm in the office, i am feeling tired already. working in the office is quite different from working on-site. on-site, i don't need to sit in front of the computer all the time thus not that tiring mentally!

anyways, this morning my manager came over and gave me an envelope and told me that i got a raise. however, i wasn't excited about it at all. it's a huge increase and rumor has it that it's a company-wide salary increase of 10%.

what good is money (tons of overtime + salary increase) if i get so occupied by work that i don't have time for God, gf, family, and friends. i barely have enough time for work + God, but i do not have much time left for gf let alone time for family and friends.

what good is money if i don't have my health to use it. if i continue working like this for another one or two years, i'm quite certain that it'll have a negative effect on my future health.

the past 3 weeks, i often have the thought of quitting this job because i cannot see how i 'm glorifying God. this job is causing me to become more distant from God, from family, and from friends. pretty much the only factor that still support me staying in alcatel is that there is a very high possibility of being relocated to china in the future (my vision is part-time ministry in china).

today's salary increase is actually a push for me in the quitting direction. if one day God calls upon me to leave my job and look after His sheeps, letting go my high-paid job would be one of the most difficult things.

more people are going to think that i am weird. i do not feel happy about 10% salary increase. i don't gamble because i'm afraid of winning....


- posted by awylee @ 21:37

 
the car accident on monday morning gave me a huge change of view on life.

it's not until when my car was spinning 360 degrees on hwy401 that i realize how fragile we humans are. despite my dad's near-fatal heart attack four years ago and dad's fatal heart attack little over one year ago, i still do not treasure life that dearly. even though we are just temporary visitors of this world, not everyone of us get to go to that permanent home of ours to stay with our heavenly father. life is very fragile and unpredictable, if we do not take every opportunity to spread the gospel to non-Christians, we don't know if we'll get a second chance with the same person or not.

after this accident, there are several other things that i'm really thankful in addition to God saving my life numerous times:

1. God has provided me such a loving, caring, and considerate gf!! i was extremely moved to seeing her when she came to see me right after the accident and spent the time with me while i was waiting for my uncle to pick me up! i was even more moved to hear what she had originally planned for me when i get there (cooked breakfast for me and several other things). and i was super duper touched to know of her intended plan for chinese new year!!

2. a very supportive mom. even while i'm still sorting out things with OPP and towing company, my mom already told me not to worry about the car and that she'll help pay for a new car!

3. because of the car accident, i do not need to go to las vegas for a short while (1 week?!?) despite that i am the team lead for that project. also from the accident, i get to take a few days off (2 days to be exact). that was a much needed rest because the last day off i had was on jan/4.

4. while waiting for my uncle, i cried for the first time in several months. that was a much needed outburst. i was extremely frustrated in las vegas the past two weeks because whatever i do there, i cannot improve the system at all.
- posted by awylee @ 23:10

 
GOD SAVED MY LIFE NUMEROUS TIMES TODAY!!

a few of you may know, this morning i got into a huge car accident and my car's probably total loss (or at least would require $10k+ to fix)

God's first two angels:
as i was driving on the fast lane on hwy401, suddenly a car cut in front of me and i could not slow down in time so i had to turn to the next lane to avoid the car. consequently that caused my car to lose control and spun 360 degrees on hwy401. God's first angel is saving me from hitting other cars on the highway while my car was spinning. God's second angel prevented me from spinning into the concrete highway divider while i was moving at 80+ kph. my car rear-ended into the concrete when i was about 5-10 kph.

God's third angel:
my car was stopped rear-ended into the concrete and is perpendicular to the highway. the front part of my car obstruded into the fast lane slightly. therefore i try to manuver my car to sit in the shoulder parallel to the traffic. as i try to move my car, a car coming from the fast lane ran (at minimum of 80 kph) into the passenger side of my car causing my car to spin another 180 degrees now with the front of the car stuck on the concrete. i lost consciousness during the time my car went the 180 degrees. the next thing i knew was that the inside of my car was all messed up. God's third angel protected me from such a violent impact!

God's fourth angel:
a gm pickup truck was trying to avoid another car and went onto the shoulder...the resulting move caused that car to go straight at me (the driver side). God's miracle turned that gm truck that it hit my rear bumper rather than right at me when i was unconscious.

God's fifth angel:
i got out of the whole accident totally un-harmed, with only a sore left arm.

a few pictures of my poor beat up car is available in my picture directory:
http://www.imagestation.com/members/awy2lee
- posted by awylee @ 18:04